Sometimes I wish my mind wasn't so vivid and my memory of emotional events not so clear. I wish that I could see the future too. Just to save myself some time, some heartache. I know everything that doesn't kill me will essentially make me stronger. I also know that some day everything that has already happened will prove it's self as being for a reason. I know that I am growing and changing for the better as I write each word that you now read. I know that one day it'll all come together in something that will make me proud of me.

A year ago today my life changed...I wish I knew then the changes made that day, would mean almost nothing at all. I'm not sure what it all proved to go thru it and still walk out of the craziness.

However, maybe that was the point...to say that I walked thru it. I am bumped and bruised, I am torn and a bit mangled. Essentially I'm ok. My internal wounds will heal, one day this won't feel like it does now, shit it doesn't feel like it did.

I'm growing stronger
With every word
Whether or not
You believe
Or it sounds absurd
I know what I see
And not what I've heard


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