It's annoying that the people that should know better just dont.
Then I get mad and I scream on these people...and in turn they call me selfish and wrong. Damn. Why can't people understand that my brain is mine and no one else's. I tell them to back down....I beg for them to leave me in peace and yet the torment continues.
See I dont bother people...I just do what needs to be done, I say what needs to be said and then basically I keep it moving.
Now they say you should share your intelligence and know how with others. They say that God will frown upon me....I doubt that. I help those who help themselves, just as HE does. Why should I pull my pocket to the point of strain? Why should I spend endless hours on them while neglecting myself and my aspirations? Why should they feel comfortable to roll up in my home, in my life, in my soul making it heavy?I've wrote about it before and I will write about it again...I am searching for peace, for calm. I want my soul to be light and my for my heart not to feel so full. I dont want to be labored with stresses that are not own. I dont want to be bogged down with stressors that come in the night to feed upon me like jackals in the desert. I no longer wish to feel as though my life, my time,or my mind belong not to me but solely to parasidic sponges.
It is my heartfelt wish that they all succeed in the path that the Lord has choosen for them to walk. It is my desire that they all make thier lives complete and wonderous....
It is also my desire that they go and learn as I did. Make it happen on their own as I am. Make their success their own...mine is my own.
Do I sound selfish??
Maybe...
But I didnt cause or sign up for their stress... so why should I have to live it?
If I am selfish then answer that question for me...




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