Purple Rain on Graduation Day...A Mid Morning's Thought...

I just had this thought and I haven't flushed it out yet....so to quote Prince, I was dreaming when I wrote this forgive me if it goes astray...

Trying to be happy or getting to a higher level of living isn't easy.... WAIT this needs a lil PSA first. When I say higher level please don't get it twisted. I am not really talking about money. I mean money is great but there is much more to life than the material. I just hope people don't miss this message. Anyway, I now return you to your regularly scheduled blog already in progress.... You meet plenty of opposition and road blocks and difficult people and for me, my own criticism of my work and self. Now with all those things factored in the very last thing any one of us needs are purposeless people, or to be a purposeless person ourselves.

Again to quote Prince, I was dreaming when I wrote this so sue me if it goes too fast...

I have been the kind of person that enjoys people. I love laughing and dancing; having a good drink and good conversation. Of parties I have often said, "If the music is good then so am I". Even at times when it wasn't good I made the best of it. Lately, to get deep for a moment...if I may...the music hasn't been good anywhere. Stay with me reader...I'm not talking about clubs.
Things seem so lackluster...boring and no I am not depressed, I'm disgusted. I find myself less and less concerned with the human condition since people don't have much respect for themselves, the government seems to have no respect for the people, and my little cousin wants to be Hannah Montana for Hall'oween.

People seem to run themselves in circles...my marriage is unhappy, some of my friends say, well then make an effort to change the situation. I need to get a job, a family member mentions...well you shouldn't have run your mouth at you last job and the 8 you had prior and you wouldn't have gotten fired again. I don't know if I like this guy I'm seeing, other friends utter...well then stop seeing him, yea it's that simple kids. I keep gaining weight, another may mention...well put down the cake and chips and try to remember that BK is not in the major food groups and go take a walk. I don't know who I am and lack a sense of self, I surprisingly heard from a truly unexpected source...well tell your family to kiss your ass and go do what makes you happy, you're grown damn it, you have worlds of suggestions for everyone else, take your own advice.

As you well may have guessed my advice falls on deaf ears and after years of giving it...what's the point? This morning it occurred to me that these maybe purposeless people to me and I feel like I maybe a purposeless person to them. It's annoying me cause I am not helping them...what is the point exactly? And no...you can't help everyone. I wouldn't want to... If I did I'd still be in case management using my Psych degree.

Again to quote Prince, So if I gotta die I'm gonna listen to my body tonight...

I'm just saying...life is so short...TOO short to be annoyed, unhappy, tired, miserable, unhealthy and forlorn. Why not just do what makes you happy? Why not just let go and go for it? You don't have to be purposeless and downtrodden if you decide that you don't want to be. I sure as hell don't want to be.

If Christians are right and there is no reincarnation then this is it people...one chance is all you get. What's the sense in making a holy mess of it and then sitting in the mess...complaining. Make yourself a purposeful person and do something about it.

To quote Kanye West, Lock yourself in a room doing 5 beats day for 3 summers...

People think me a fool, a workaholic, and disconnected but; I know something Kanye knew. Shit doesn't come because you want it to and just because you want it to. You need to work for it. So if something has you down get on your grind and fix it. If you don't want to fix it then live in it and stop complaining to me...I'm busy, and this was just my second summer.